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I'm thinking of you on this blessed Good Friday and I pray that you and your family have been doing wonderful. When I meditate on the significance of this day and, as Resurrection Day approaches, I feel increasingly grateful for God's love and mercy toward us. For His light is perpetually brighter in an otherwise dark world. The gift of our Lord Jesus. Your testimony will always be one of the most powerful and impactful ones I have beheld. I am blessed to call you my friend. Your ministry continues to draw the lost to salvation. I give praise to God for continuing to use you as a strong vessel. Happy Easter, my friend. Love Jillian, NY.


You have been such a blessing in my life, I want to assist you in your ministry Charles. Thanks so much for sending scripture in your letters. You always give out advice I need to hear and be reminded about. It was you who finally convinced me how much God loves me. I became a Christian at 22 and I'm sure I heard God loves me over the years, but it never sunk in, I never felt the impact I should have until you told me how strong God's love is for me and for all of us. Today, I always wake up being grateful for another day to be alive and have good health. Jim, AZ


People in my circle are still finding amazement wit your website. God has blessed you in abundance with wisdom, perseverance and love for your fellow man. It all flows through your writings. Well Charles, I wanted you to know that you are esteemed and are being prayed for in Pennsylvania. Thank you for your dedication to the Lord's work. May He bless you and your family with joy, peace, hope, and love. God bless you my brother. Joe, PA


I read your 200-question interview online and was moved by the message you kept saying as the interviewer kept asking. I was inspired by the relative that came and met with you and she forgave what was done to her relative, truly amazing. It shows there is still hope by the grace of God that people still have good in them. For you I pray that one day you will breathe free air for a least a day, along with the freedom you found spiritually.

I have had time to reflect on my life and came to some pretty harsh reality, that I was not the good person I thought I was. I believe God gave me the strength to look at myself honestly and to own those bad things and let them go. I literally went and wrote down my bad deeds to family, friends and business customers and I tell you it hurt, hard and deep, but I woke up the next day and felt a weight off me. I find honesty in your message and sense no judgment either. For that, I was glad I took a leap and wrote you. Michael, IA

I hope all is well with you.  I've read about your life now, and how you have a positive affect on those around you.  I'm 60 years old, and have followed your story for many years.  I'm one of many that feel that you've paid your price, and would like to see you free!  I believe in you, sir, feel free to write to me.  My wife is disabled and would love to hear from you also. 

Dennis King from NC


Dear Charles,

I'm 23 years old, and I'm from a dreary little city in the UK.  I have 11 piercings and 3 tattoos, with more to come.  I'm starting university in October, studying English language and literature, and British Sign Language.

I just want to check in on you, make sure you're being treated the way you should be.  No one deserves to be treated wrongly, you might  have made mistakes in the past, doesn't mean you're a bad person.  You're still human.  Your past mistakes are meant to guide you, not define you.  Everyone makes mistakes in life, but that doesn't mean they have to pay for them the rest of their life.  Sometimes good people make bad choices.  It doesn't mean they are bad, it means they are human.

It's a quote I believe heavily in.  I'm not a religious person, not in the slightest, but I believe people can change.  I have this amazing gift where I can only see the good in people, however I don't know. So if you wouldn't mind, may you please tell me a little more about yourself?  I'd like to think myself as non-judgmental at all.

Take care and look after yourself, all the best,  Taylor from the UK


I sincerely hope you are doing well, especially in this uncertain world we are all living in right now.  I know it must be even more of
a problem in your situation, being in close quarters and so forth.  I am a follower of Jesus Christ myself.  I grew up Catholic, but don't
really believe in all of the ritualistic restraints that organized religion offers, so I really would say I am spiritual and not religious.  I am really inspired by the transformation in your life. I see so many people, even close friends go down that path in life that leads to destruction.  I know that you could have easily given up and threw in the towel with all that you were faced with.  I sometimes feel the same, but I know that Christ has a plan for me, as he had for you. Keep up the good work, even when discouraged, because I am in your corner Brother, praying for you.  If there is anything I can do 
to help and support your ministry, don't hesitate to let me know.

Peace and stay well,  John from TX


I'm so sorry to be writing back to you very late, I was having a hard time with my life.  I was in a "depression mist" and I was convinced I would burn out and that would be the end of me.

I got good news!  I'm currently a bit more cleaned up, vice wise, I still stick to the social glass of wine or a joint, but no more hard stuff!  I quit cold turkey and the first two weeks were brutal, I lost weight and sleep and almost my sanity.  After those two weeks I felt and still feel blank.  But a bit more radiant.  I also joined a Bible study group and I feel a bit like a goldfish in my first study.  I looked so different from everyone else, pale, thin, and dark hair.

I also saw your film on Forgiveness and it helped me forgive myself. Thank you so, so much Mr. Watson.  Your words of encouragement have helped a lot.  Thank you so much for showing love from your gold radiant heart and for listening to me.  It helps a lot relating and being able to grow from someone who's been in similar shoes to me.

Lots of Love,  Joseph from CA


Dear Mr. Charles Watson,

Hello, my name is Mark, I'm a young Irish podcaster.  I find your story and progress towards God, very interesting.  The fact that someone can stray so far but sill come back to God is beautiful.  I hope that I never stray that far, I hope to study journalism.

I heard that you accepted letters and I knew I had to write.  When I first read about your story I knew you had been manipulated by Manson. The establishment of your of your ministry and the work you do from prison is very inspiring.  I have my own local Christian youth group. 

I hope you haven't been affected by COVID to badly.  Our lifestyles share some similarities as we are both locked inside.  I enjoy gardening and listening to some Bible study podcasts over lockdown.

Thank you, Mark from Ireland


Thank you very much for answering me and also thank you for the brochure and the website that I was able to visit and read because to admit everything, I did not know this part of your life, I mean this meeting with God.  So I have a new vision of you, I only knew you from the reports and videos on YouTube that I have seen for so many years but it never speaks of this new life with God.

My best friend is a Christian and he even got his Bible degree, he invited me to church for graduation.  For my part, during my travels "always in France" I have never left my country, I will always visit churches, Basilica's, Cathedrals, I have visited dozens and dozens and always the same feeling, a soothing moment, but I'm not a believer.

I'm going to put your website on my Facebook page, I'll leave you Mr. Watson and again thank you for answering me, believe me, that touches me.

Allan from France


My name is Amberrae Richardson.  I hope this letter finds you well.  I stumbled upon the book "Redeemed Unredeemable" and then I went on your site and felt compelled to write this letter.

I'd first like to say, You are Forgiven!  And I believe in you!  I've had struggles similar to what you had described growing up.  My alcoholic father instilled fear in me at an early age, which led to my own abuse of alcohol and some drug use to numb the pain of a horrible childhood of poverty and my mother who was too afraid to leave him and get my brother and myself out of the situation.

As I got older and got myself out, I became an alcoholic myself, made many bad decisions and became estranged from my father for over 2 decades.  I tried to reach out to him and he never replied back to me. I became filled with anger and rage and didn't know how to control it. I'd lash out at friends and family and found myself in dangerous situations.  A failed marriage in my 30's pushed me back further and I knew I needed help.  I started going back to church and was baptized in 2014 and gave my life to the Lord.

I currently attend a Baptist Church which is right next door to my home.  My dad passed away almost 4 years ago and I have forgiven him, such a powerful feeling and one which I wish I had found a lot sooner, but I learned it's never too late.  I found much comfort in your story and I thank you so much for sharing it.  I'm very much looking forward to reading your books.  Anxiety and fear still consume me some days but I pray and speak with the Lord and I'm always reminded there is no need to worry.  I feel the Lord working in you and through you.  I'm sure you receive a lot of mail, thank you for reading my letter and I
would love to hear back from you!  I'll keep you in my prayers and pray you continue to do the Lord's work and help others.

God Bless, Amberrae from OH


I don't know if you still remember me, but I wrote you one and a half years ago.  I was just thinking about you while reading your book and was wondering how you are doing?  Would be nice if you could tell me a little bit about the changes you've experienced.  I hope you are doing well, please keep your spirits up and stay strong!

Kind Regards, Michael from Germany


My name is Brandon, I'm a 21-year-old college student living in Ventura.  You ever been to Ventura?  How have you been?  We are living in some strange times.  What have you been doing to kill time in prison?  I actually was gonna order "Will You Die for Me?" this week at my local bookstore.  Have you ever thought about releasing more work?  I engrave and assemble urns.  Hope to hear back.  Take care and stay safe.

Gods Speed, Brandon, CA


Sorry it has been so long.  I contracted COVID and had a slow recovery and my 95 year old mother passed on 1/28.  She just died of old age, but was strong and capable to the end.  I will miss our phone calls. She was always telling me to be sure and stay in touch with you.  She said always remain his much-needed friend and forgiving force.  I know she is with dad and her seven brothers and sisters that passed before her, but I sure wish she could visit me in her dreams.  We could not see her in the past year because of the pandemic.

Your website looks awesome with updates and improvements it seems to me.  I have literally been on it all day before I wrote this letter. I hope this new year is a good one for you and me-especially for you as so many people rely on your teachings and guidance.  Again, I will enclose a stamped envelope if you want to write back, or use it for anyone else who may need it.

With Christ's love, William from FL


I am 43 years old, a single parent with a 7-year-old daughter.  I ran across your story, and found it very inspirational!  All that has happened to you and how you turned out is truly a story that should be told, and re-told.  It has inspired me to find the Lord, and my life has been much better ever since.

I am not perfect by any means, but I am on a way better track in this life, and I thank the Lord for that.  I just wanted to let you know that you do inspire people, and I thank you for that.  I really hope someday you can get out and enjoy life on the outside and make a difference how you are now.  I wish I could do more for you.  I would love to hear back from you if you have time.  Once again, thanks.

David from Michigan


I recently came upon your Abounding Love Ministries website and read about your story.  I've been a Christian almost my entire life, but struggle often with loneliness and insecurities.  Your story has touched me in a way only a few testimonies ever have.  I'm 22 years old so I hope you know it means something to someone younger of this generation.  

This past year filmmaker Quentin Tarantino made a film called "Once Upon A Time in Hollywood", which has the Manson family as the backdrop of the plot between a fictional actor and his stuntman, set during 1969.  I have a feeling you haven't seen it, but just curious if you have, or if you have heard anything about it?  Do you have any thoughts on it?  If so, what?

It might sound strange, but without seeing this movie I might have never looked deeper into the Manson case, or come to discover you coming to Christ.  It was one of the most critically acclaimed films of the past year and I discovered your testimony now as a result, several months later.  A lot of people on the internet cheer the films ending because it has the perpetrators killed by the actor and his stuntman, with Sharon Tate and the others at their home alive as an alternate reality.  As I type this letter though, I can only imagine if more people, other Christians included, could know how much God has changed your life.

I can't fathom all that you've had to deal with in your life.  I'm so grateful though that you found God and are willing to share that with others.  I was very touched reading about your interaction with Susan LaBerge and her showing the power of forgiveness.  I'll be sure to share your testimony with many friends.

I'm not sure if you'd be able to write back but if you could...I'd be extremely grateful to hear your perspectives and thoughts.  Keep doing what you're doing, it's helping others.  I'll pray for you and that your Bible that was stolen is found and returned. Many blessings, Andrew from IL.


In the early eighties, I was a young rebellious teenager.  I left my home behind and soon found myself relocated amongst a bunch of "Jesus Freaks" 5 states away.  Fortunately, in spite of my self-destructive behavior, I stayed on the right side of the law.  That said, I was fascinated with the macabre, and my curiosity even led me to investigate the occult.  All of this together created great spiritual conflict.  I eventually discovered my true condition before God, I am a sinner and surrendered myself to Christ.  The church I have been a part of for decades is one built on deep biblical study/discipleship and understanding our very personal relationship with our God.

I now run a secular veteran's non-profit to prevent suicide and a veterans outreach ministry through our church.  I also volunteer at one of our local prisons' veterans programs on occasion.  I have seen the horrors of war and I have many who ask that catch-all question..."If God is so good, why does He allow evil to happen in the world?"

When I read your book "Will you Die for Me" back in the early '80s, I honestly wasn't thinking about you or if your walk with Christ was legit, what I saw was an insight into how forgiving our God really is.  I don't know your mind/heart, in fact, you could be full of crap, but what I learned about God through your words is nonetheless true of our Father.  He can (and desires) to forgive the worst of us.  His grace; not our works.  On occasion, I share your story (along with some others) in my teachings to make a point about the extremeness of God's forgiveness.  It's hard for many to take, but my point is to begin trying to see things through God's perspective and not our own human comparison. 

My question for you (if you will) is this...Would you share with me what God's grace and forgiveness means to you?  I know I sometimes struggle with the wrongs I have done in my life, feeling guilty (because I am) and constantly having to give that guilt to my Father, so I can only imagine that for you it must be very difficult.  Living with and being accountable to what you have done, how do you approach God?  What about accountability for your actions?  I believe forgiveness doesn't absolve our accountability for our actions, eternally forgiven--yes, but we are still accountable to whatever consequences there may be.  Do you agree?

Thank you for your time and I look forward to your response which I hope to share with those I encounter who are really struggling with their past. Respectfully and In Him, Michael from OH.


My name is Tracey and I live near Detroit.  I am a born-again, blood-bought, forgiven daughter of the King.  I've read your books and website, and I'm very impressed with your teachings!  I agree with so much...especially the evils of Rock Music.  I was in a successful local band years ago, and it led to much destruction.  Now, I write Christian music.

I hope this letter finds you and our loved ones well!  I don't understand what prison is like, however before Jesus, I was in a prison myself.  God freed me from heroin, valium and alcohol.  A mighty, mighty deliverance.  I feel He's called me to help addicts, the mentally broken and the homeless, but also to use my musical talents.

What keeps you busy now Charles?  As I stated, the website/ministry is awesome.  I learned a lot from reading. How about the various people who write to you?  Have you forged Friendships?  Are some folks troubled?  I'd enjoy a reply!

My current ministry is online prayer, encouragement to addicts and a tract and snack ministry. Yours in Christ, Tracey from MI.


I wanted to finally contact you and let you know how inspirational I found your books.  I also draw inspiration from what I've read on Abounding Love Ministries.  I truly believe that you're found your salvation through Christ, and are doing God's work in your ministries. I hope and pray that one day, that you'll be granted release.  I had thought with the new Governor, that parole might be a possibility so that you can reach more people with your ministries.

It saddens me when I see show after show, movie after movie, and book after book, looking to cash in.  I think with each one, it makes it harder for you and on you.  I will be praying for you, and I hope that someday, you will be able to be with your family full time.  God Bless you, and thank you for all the work you do with the people you interact with daily.

Is there anything I can help you with, to help you further your ministries?  I'd love to help, but not sure how I could, other than in my prayers, but I'd like to do more.  I know that if you can turn your life around, anyone can, and your inspirational story is one that can teach a lot of people about the love and forgiveness of Christ Jesus. Byron from CA.


Hello, I recently came across the website "Abounding Love" and wanted to give you my praise.  I consider myself a religious person who believes in God and prays daily, but I do not attend church or read the bible.  But some of the words you've written were very meaningful to me, and I wanted to thank you for having such information readily available for someone such as myself to see.  I wanted to ask if there are any books you recommend?  I am always eager to learn and share with those around me, so it would be greatly appreciated!

Thank you for your time and I wish you all the best. Jeff, CA.


I just completed reading "Manson's Right Hand Man Speaks Out", and was completely blown away.  On the 50th anniversary of the "Manson murders", I had re-read "Helter Skelter" and watched the many documentaries that have been airing.  I was as terrified and disgusted as any other human with a soul should be, but I also started questioning how on earth something like that occurs.  Your e-book answered many of my questions.

It is clear that we are currently living in a culture of rapidly increasing senseless violence and hate (perhaps not perpetuated, but certainly not condemned sufficiently by our politicians).  There are A LOT of young people out there (four were just arrested just this past week) with desires to create mass carnage.  It is scary and it is simply not easily understandable...at least until I read your e-book.  Many of your very valid and thoughtful points helped me to better get a grip on why a lot of this is happening, and how it could ever be avoided. 

It is clear that you are a very different man from the one that was condemned many decades ago.  In the same breath though, I think of the families of your own victims, and how I would personally feel if somebody murdered my loved ones.  Hate is a disease, but it would most likely be one that I would have to live with, since my love for my family is infinitely greater than my capacity to forgive.  I was however fascinated and happy to read your journey to personal forgiveness, and your trek to forgive yourself.  It was tremendously thought inspiring. 

Your points about incarceration and recidivism were also very interesting.  I absolutely believe that rehabilitation starts with honest personal reflection and an acceptance that there is something much greater than the self.  Until an inmate accepts their small place in the bigger world, the chance of repeat offence seems to be high.  I just don't know if you can ever FORCE somebody to make that acceptance and understand the much bigger picture....they have to WANT to make that change.  Should those that do not wish to make that change be kept incarcerated (I personally believe so)?

The question becomes, once they have made that change and accepted their place, should they be offered a place back into society?  How do you measure their true intentions?  I have a friend in jail for life for murdering a VERY bad guy for what I consider good reason (even the victim's family support my friend).  If he were ever paroled, I would not hesitate to trust him with my loved ones.  But, odds are...he will die in prison.  What good is that going to do anybody?

Bottom line, I'm holding on to your e-book for future reference.  It was very thought-provoking, and answered a lot of questions that I had about your own past, but also about the reform system.  I'd imagine that the violence of your own acts may prevent you from ever being released, but I am remarkably impressed with your grasp of self and the world around you, and I thank you for authoring such a thoughtful read. Sincerely, Randy from FL.


My name is Scott, and I am 43 years old.  Throughout my life, I have known about the incidents that occurred back in 1969, but did not know a lot of details about what happened.  But since the new movie came out in July 2019, I wanted to learn more about what happened.  As I did more research, I learned more about you, then I found your Abounding Love Ministries and visited the website.  I browsed the whole site and all I can say is what a great testimony you have.  I am also a Christian and have been saved since September 16, 2007.  You are proof of Jesus' mercy and grace and as you know, all the things you did back then are washed away forever, never to be thought of again.

I know as a Christians, we are not to take credit from man, but I just wanted to say keep up the good work and keep planting and spreading God's Word.  One day, you will know how many people you have directed towards the Lord and you will receive your reward in heaven.  As you know, from the worst situations imaginable, God can make wonderful things happen for His glory. Scott from FL.


My name is Kelsey, I'm from Massachusetts and I'm about to turn 23, right around the same age you were when the murders occurred.  I'm currently reading the book "Helter Skelter" and I watched "Once Upon a Time in Hollywood" over the summer, but the murders and Manson's "cult" are something that have interested me for a while.  I don't judge you or anyone else for them, I simply wonder why and try to place myself in that kind of state of mind you were in.

I know the 60's were a much different time, and when you're at a low place in life it can be easy to fall into bad hands.  I know you're eligible for parole--- do you believe you'll ever get released?  Or do you think you'll live out the rest of your life there?  What's your opinion now, being reformed and older, on what happened, and on the other members?  What were the 60's like, and your life prior to the murders?  Did you ever think they, and you, would gain so much publicity?  I read a lot on this kind of stuff, and I plan on becoming a mortician, so it always interests me, I guess you could say.

      Also, I'm curious; genuinely, are you happy with your life now?  I know being in prison is difficult, but are you happy?  I hope to hear back from you.  Thank you for reading. Kelsey, MA.


Thank you ever so much for your fast response!  I appreciate the Christians 12 step, I have it up on my computer now and am reading it as time allows at work.  Yes, wow, the website is phenomenal!  Lots of cool stuff in there!

Please know that your testimony is amazing, where you came from, and where you are now with God.  I have been thinking about it and that is a miracle of God's Divine Mercy and Providence!  I can honestly say that I am inspired and motivated to change many things in my life, because of your story.

August 26th is my three-year AA sober anniversary and I am getting smoking out of my life, starting on this August 26th.  Working to be better for myself, my son and daughter, and most important to be as you are, a Soldier for the Lord. 

Thank you again for your inspiration, it has helped me to be better.  Prayers Always, Martin CO.


My name is Nick, I've pastored a church in the Mississippi Delta for the past forty years.  I've been deeply touched by your life story and testimony.  I would like information concerning your ministry and possible materials that might be available.  It would be a privilege to correspond with you and pray for your ministry.  Enclosed is a self-addressed envelope.  Looking forward to your response. Thanks so much. In Christ, Nick, MS.


I was happy to hear that you are making the most of your life as possible, and you are doing everything positive that you can.

It was also noted that you are certain that you're forgiven, but have a Godly regret for your actions.  It seems to me that your feeling that you will never get out, and the fact that you don't feel you deserve to get out, and you've been living a Christina life since 1975, gives you a good deal of credibility.

I'm also wondering if in your life you've had many experiences when you've felt you've had a positive effect on others, and if there is somewhat of a redemptive feeling when that happens...like that you have a purpose?

Before I close, just wanted to say that I feel for people everywhere who have done something they truly regret. I know the world is full of people who don't really care what pain they inflict.  I do think there are a limited number of people who have true remorse for their actions and would give anything to go back in time and change what they did.  That is so sad to me that they can't undo it.  It's also really horrible for the victims that they can't undo the past

          Working as a school counselor during my career, I saw kids make some pretty bad mistakes that cost them dearly, it is difficult to watch.  I'd think you may have words and a perspective that could be helpful to people, and obviously your ministry is proof of that. Respectfully, David OH.


What good news it is to me that you are using my letter for your June 2020 View.  If we can just reach one person out of the masses, then they can pass it on, and from there it grows and grows.  There is a saying we have in AA, when two alcoholics meet at any place and anytime it is considered a meeting.  The same can be said about when two Christians meet, or in our case, correspond by letter.  With churches being empty, and the sermons being preached online, I sure feel more fellowship writing you.

On a personal note, does anyone still call you "Tex?"  My old nickname is "Llama."  My old friends were the only ones who called me that.  In 2012 when I went to prison, all the people I grew up with and that I held closest to my heart, all abandoned me.  I have been tossing an idea around in my head about the "Ballad of Tex and Llama."  A tale of bad choices, drug and alcohol abuse, and unforgivable actions.  It feels as if I have a scarlet letter on my forehead, and I feel as if everyone looks upon me and I feel great shame.  Now I walk with my head up and feel proud of who I am.  Galatians 2:20 really sums it up for me!  IT really says to me, I may be the same body and head, but my thoughts, heart and soul are nothing like the old carcass I use as a vehicle. 

I now try to carry myself through Psalm 107:2.  I am slowly but surely realizing that the old me is me I don't recognize anymore.  Those who gave up on me I dearly miss, but those who didn't know the old me, have been touched by God through me.  I can only pray for those who have abandoned me, and hope through actions and word, they realize I am reborn and live for the Lord now.  As I hope and pray for the forgiveness of others, my Pastor told me to hold onto Ephesians 4:31-32.  Those two verses go hand in hand with the AA saying, don't go to bed with a grudge!  I pray you're doing well and stay safe. Your friend, Kenneth, TN.


I am just shy of twenty-four years of age. What made me aware of your existence was a fictional portrayal of you in a movie. Now, I consider myself a relatively well-informed student of American history, but coming out of this film (called Once Upon a Time in Hollywood), I was unaware that so many of the characters portrayed in this alternate history scenario were based on actual persons -- this was quite shocking.

I would like to say that I was reading on the website of Abounding Love Ministries, and I found the story of your conversion to be quite inspiring. To be honest, despite coming from a Catholic background I do not consider myself to be a religious person. But hearing that someone like you, despite coming from such terrible circumstances, decided to dedicate their life to a higher purpose truly struck a chord with me. Perhaps I am young and naive, but the question is still worth asking: when is retribution accomplished? J.P., Alabama.


Thank you so very much for your reply meant a lot to me. I wrote to you a couple of years ago.

I am 72 next month and remember the 60s like it was yesterday. The time of the Hippies and flower power was the best time ever for me. And all the music form the Byrds, Beach Boys, Mamas and Papas. We live in a different world now; it was a much better time then. 

Thank you so much for putting me in the right direction. I was all over the place and nothing made any sense. I never believed in anything or anybody. Was totally lost and now thanks to you Charles I have found God and my life has totally turned around and I feel so much better now.

Please take care of yourself. You are doing a wonderful job with your abounding love. You have sent so many people in the right direction. And we are all grateful to you Charles. Please take care of yourself. God Bless, Jim, USA.


Dear Charles, I read with great interest your life story: "Will You Die For Me?", and wow! Thank you, very inspiring.

I just saw the new movie "Once Upon a Time in Hollywood" with my 15 year old son over the weekend, and it piqued my interest.

It has been 45 years since I, as a 13 year old, read "Helter Skelter", and I was reminded again of that crazy time in 1969 (almost 50 years ago to the day).

Thank you, Charles for your great service in the Lord's work, and please know I am praying for you, and for God's will to be upon you, whether pardoned or not. 

I am going to light a candle at night (I am Catholic) from August 8-10, and all night it will remind me to pray for God's blessing on you. Thank you again. This read truly did move me! Sincerely, Martin, CO.


Dear Mr. Watson, My name is Derek , and I live in Salem, Massachusetts. (Yes, the "witch" city! Ha ha!) I am interested in your case because of the incredible strides you have made in becoming a better person while incarcerated and the fact that you strive to help others better themselves through your writings and your religious group. I have read a bit about Abounding Love Ministries on the internet and was very impressed with the progress you have made in your rehabilitation, and the great remorse you must feel. I think everyone deserves a second chance, and in my opinion, you have earned and deserve it. Derek, MA


Thank you for writing me back. I did check out your website and found it to be very interesting and I love how open you are, especially when it comes to sharing your love for God. I am still trying to understand the meaning of God's plan. My questions with my believing and having faith has come from the bad things that have happened in my past. You are an inspiration to me to learn more about his love and salvation. I have told others about your website so hopefully they will check it out. Jamie, OR


Wishing you every love and happiness at Christmas and throughout 2019. May the grace, mercy and blessings of Jesus Christ enrich you throughout the holidays -- and always. You are often in my thoughts and prayers and your ministry has been a fountain of strength for me during the last 6 months. Thank you! With my best regards always. God Bless you! Chris, U.K.


I received your postcard. I look forward to seeing the letter on your website (December 2018 Monthly View). You are always in my prayers. Maybe you can show me how to repent. I have done some terrible crimes myself. Maybe we can help each other. I just wanna do good for God now. I wanna make amends. You are a role model. Please stay in touch. Your friend and brother in Christ, John, PA.


I emailed the admin about 4 or 5 years ago when I was initially blessed to discover Charles' amazing testimony. I just wanted to say that ALMS is still making a difference in my life and helping me tremendously in my walk with Christ. I've printed many of your Gospel Tracts/Leaflets and will be sharing them. Today I started with my Church in NY! I plan on writing Charles personally soon. I pray he and all his dear ones are well. Thank you for all that you do. God bless you! Jillian


Hope this finds you still solid in the Word and in good spirits. Certainly over the years there have had to be times you wanted to be free and actually it is my view that you should have been freed a long time ago. But my opinion on knowing that GOD changes people has no clout except to another brother in Christ...which you are. So keep that chin up brother and say prepared. There will come a day when you will feel the breeze blowing on your face in a land paid for by Christ with His blood. Nobody is totally innocent here Charles save the children who haven't been corrupted yet. And while some have a past that is rougher than others...we are ALL capable of being washed clean in the blood of the Savior!! Greg, GA


I was looking at some online ministries and found yours. Your story is extraordinary! People get locked up and the world forgets them. They don't dare and do not see the good that someone in prison can supply! Yours is a story that can motivate and encourage people to torn their life around and help others! If I can send you anything to help out, please let me know. Scott, NC


I wrote you a couple months ago and telling you my interest in going to grad school and asking your opinion on the hippie movement. I actually have just recently applied and haven't heard back from the school yet. I just wanted to write this letter thanking you for your response. I tried to get in contact with roughly 15 people from the 60s, and only got a response from you and one other. So again, thank you. Lastly, I wanted to say that the more I read about the hippie movement, the more inclined I also am to think it was a failure. As you said, they had no foundation. To me, the only thing that held them together was the Vietnam War, and once that ended, they had nothing. Cole, GA


I was struggling with addiction and went off the deep end. Lost my girl, sold everything, and had hardly nothing, but I came across your letter and the uplifting, positive things you said to me. Something hit me, the Lord! I knew that there was only one way to go, up! I checked into a clinic, kicked drugs and booze, and I thank the Lord Jesus, and you and your story. You really helped me, man. Aaron, TN


I continue to be blessed by your Christian website. I just learned how to use the computer about 3 years ago. God has given us a measuring stick of His love and that measuring stick is called "Calvary"! Lifting you up in prayer today during my fellowship time with the Lord! In addition your ministry! Floyd, USA


Dear Mr. Watson: Yes, I gave my soul to Christ years ago when I was in my late 20s. Yes sir, it is free and the world would be a better place if everyone knew Jesus. It was good receiving a letter back. I showed your flyer to my pastor..., and he did a sermon about you. I think you will be happy to know that, and the sermon was very good I might add. He said he was going to write too. I'll keep you in my prayers. Your friend, Jake, FL


I'm 35 years old and I'm a truck driver. I don't want you to take this letter as fan mail. I'm not a collector in any way. I just like the page Abounding Love Ministries and feel it's a very good thing you are doing. I read your book "Will You Die For Me?" It is a great book and a real eye-opener. So after seeing your mailing address, I figured I would write and tell you how much I enjoy what you do. Thanks Mr. Watson. Jake, Florida


Praise report from the April '17 View


I never imagined myself sitting down to write you a letter, but here I am. I have been fascinated with cults and cult mentality since I wrote my first research paper on the Manson Family back in 1985. I recently read your interview "Will You Die For Me?" and I was very impressed with the insight you were able to provide from first-hand knowledge of how a person is able to be drawn into the "cult" mentality. I just wanted to take a moment to say that I admire that you have step up to take responsibility for your part in that summer, and how you have turned your life around. Rhonda, IN

In my mid-teens, because of overcoming my tumultuous childhood, I had a strong influence over my peers. I was raised by a good family, but the sexual abuse I endured in the church as a child went unaddressed and suffocated from any attention. In high school, my instigation became the catalyst to influential manipulation of the next generation of younger teenagers that surrounded me. In those times, the punk scene was flourishing and the drugs were heavy. So people became vulnerable to my ideas.

Keep in mind that now in 2017 I have been walking a spiritual path off all drugs for over 20 years. But in the early nineties, the darkness was consuming. I had my own ideology of overthrowing city council, but the details of that are unimportant now. I eventually became hospitalized for a couple of years in a psychiatric facility, in a straight jacket in solitary confinement and received daily electro-shock treatment between 1993-1995. Now this brings me to current situation...

After my release on 1995, I developed a career in the steel industry and became a successful welder. Now as a mature adult, I spend long periods of time working in isolation or camps. I get a private room, three square meals a day, and I work hard to make a living. Many of my friends in society question my spirituality because the context of raping the earth of its nonrenewable resources is so dark. But God works in such unfathomable and mysterious ways, that I have found solace in this seemingly hopeless state. Sending prayers, Rob, Burnaby, B.C., Canada


I looked at your January 2017 Monthly View and liked how it stated that I need to stop reliving past experiences. I actually make that resolution many times each year, so I am hoping that I will become strong enough someday to stop thinking about how I could have maybe done things differently, or things had gone differently between my parents and myself.

I have told you many times before, but I want to say it again that I love your Monthly View page. They are, and always have been, so inspiring to me. There are times where I wonder where you come up with your words. Do they come from things you see around you, from stuff you read, or just writing from your own experiences? Your friend, Matt, CA.


I would like to thank you for your card and your pamphlet you sent a while back. Sorry I didn't reply until now but recently I went into a depressive state of mind and also had a death in the family. My uncle passed from stage 4 throat cancer. On his death bed, he was saved one last time before he passed. At the funeral in the church during the last part, the pastor gave everyone a chance to be saved. And during that time I was saved. Your card really helped. I've now found a church and found happiness. So how have you been? Are you doing fine? I hope you find yourself in a good place. What do you do in your free time to help you keep a happy state of mind? Again, thank you so much for your card and response. It helped me more than you'll ever know. Thanks again. Hope to hear from you soon. Kaitlin, SC


My name is Kevin and I wanted to send you this letter so say hello and ask if you are in good spirits. I'm proud to hear that you changed your ways and have become a better person. You are an inspiration to me because you have shown me that even I can be a better person also. And for that I say a big thank you; do you think we can be friends to each other? I would love to be a friend to someone like you who has been a big inspiration to me. It would make me the happiest person in the world. You are one cool dude and I can't wait to hear back from you. Well I'll let you go; I just wanted to send this letter to you written from my heart to yours. Please take care, stay happy, safe, and keep your head up. Your new friend, Kevin


The reason I am writing today is because I am a teacher in Northeast for nearly twenty years and I have a heavy interest in learning about the "person behind the person." I have visited and looked over your website and observed (support) your connection to the Lord. Is this something that you found later in life or one that you came back to over the last forty years? I comment your attempt at penance on that level.

I am first and foremost a teacher and have a genuine curiosity and a desire to inform and teach others about the past, present, and a path for the future. Are you able and have access to world events today? If so, what are your feelings for the climate of the United States today, be it religious issues, political ones, or social occurrences? 

I just want to share with my high school kids, that you are "real", you have a voice, and that there is always a time and chance for a second opportunity at life. J. Kelly, MA


I just wanted to write you to say how moved I was by your book, your testimony, and your faith. I was born in 1969, and lately I've been reading some books about then, I've been a Christian for quite a long time, and I was greatly encouraged by what the Lord has done in your life and how He's continuing to use you.

I guess that's a big part about what was so encouraging about your testimony and life -- it was a great reminder that God can do anything and can make anyone a new creation at any time in any way He chooses. I'm glad you shared your story, and I just wanted to say thank you. I would appreciate your prayers for my kids, and if there's any way I can pray for you, I'd be honored to do it. God bless, Cameron, NV.


“Be encouraged! Keep looking up! Keep smiling!

You have many people praying for you. I'm thankful that we serve a God who is aware, cares, hears our prayers -- and answers them in a time and way he knows best.

"Cast all your cares upon him; for he careth for you. 1 Peter 5:7

May God bless you in a very special way.

Ordinary, however, serving an extraordinary God, Robert, MI.


“I have enjoyed seeing your articles online. I truly believe you are a "saved" born again Christian. You have certainly convinced me of that. I know that Mrs. Doris Tate never really forgave you, and she took that to her grave. But she has to deal with that. 

I am a pharmacy student at Lively College in Tallahassee, Florida. I would like to write you in the future and keep in touch with you. Can I send you postage stamps or stamped envelopes? I would like to do that if I am allowed to.

Please tell me more about your daily life and the books you recommend. Do you get "Our Daily Bread" to read in prison? I can send you a subscription if necessary. Thanks for taking the time to read this and answer me back. Sincerely, Chris, FL.


“I just finished reading your book “Will You Die For Me?”. It was interesting to see things from your perspective. Obviously, your crimes were horrible, but not beyond forgiveness and redemption as you discovered. I came to understand how they happened. In fact, I could have easily been one of you, falling into living among you all if I've been in the same place at the same time.

Like you, and I suspect most of the others, I was a kid disillusioned with my family, my life and society in general. I was full of anger, rebellion and in search of love and acceptance from anyone willing to give it, which is probably why I've had three failed marriages, among many other bad choices. I was heavily into drugs, sex with anyone who seem to want me and of course everything that goes with that lifestyle.

My family, like yours, were church-going, Bible-believing people, but I went mostly because I had to; at least until I was a teenager. It took me several years of living in hell to discover the love of Christ was for me too. I have been clean many years now; I believe God delivered me from certain death. Since then, I have been walking with God, but didn't get real serious about it until ten years ago. It's been a slow process, but I discover daily how good God really is and that I am his child, and that he loves me in spite of the things I've done. Sincerely, Gwen” Missouri.


I am a 58 year old man from Ohio. I remember the events of Aug 9-10, 1969 and have read several accounts of these events and of the family. I came across your Abounding Love Ministry and your book entitled "Will You Die for Me?" This book left me awestruck. What a powerful testimony at to how big and all encompassing the love of God truly is.

I have passed this book along to  many of my Christian brethren, including a pastor in North Carolina. I found your book to be essential reading for the many people who are searching for God in their lives but believe themselves to be too broken and too far gone for God to be able to forgive and restore them. This work shouts the good news of salvation through our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. God overlooks NOBODY! Thank you for sharing the blessing of your testimony. Yours in Christ, Dave, Ohio

Comment: We're so thankful that Dave let many of his friends know about the book. Our prayer is that you'll do the same and well as letting them know about the website.


I have been reading your book “Manson’s Right Hand Man…” First of all, I want to say Praise the Lord for your salvation. I read Helter Skelter as a teen and have often googled the “family” to see how they were doing. Certainly never saw anything about your ministry. What a wonderful ministry you do have. I wish there was one in the prison my son Craig is in. They do have church once a week but not always a minister there to lead it.

I have always prayed for my prodigal sons that whatever it took for them to recommit their lives to the Lord that it would be done. Never in my wildest dreams did I think my firstborn would end up in prison. Really it has turned out to be a blessing. He did recommit himself and has daily Bible reading and studying of the Word. He also receives different magazines from various religious organizations which he devours. I think on his pod of 80 men he is the only Christian there. He does witness to them, especially one man who was saved then turned back to witchcraft.

Again, I just want to say Praise the Lord for your salvation. How wonderful that is. You have a powerful testimony. God can use all of us no matter what. God Bless, Janice, VA


"I am writing you to acknowledge the fast you have striven to turn your life around in the most positive way possible. I commend you for accepting God's glorious grace and sharing with others in a spiritual manner. May you be healed as you heal others and know that there are still people that you don't even know that support you in your journey for freedom. I home this letter finds you in a positive way and you continue to spread love and the power of forgiveness. I would be honored to receive a response if at all possible. Sincerely, Bryan, Georgia."


"I'm writing because I happened to see your website. I have known of you since the Manson murders. I was around 10, and didn't hear much until I was older. I was quite interested in the case, thinking it would take a monster to do something like that. That is, until I became a Christian.

When I met Christ, I still thought I was a "good" person. Did I have a lot to learn! Now I know that what happened to you could happen to anyone. We all sin and fall short of God's glorious standard.

A couple years ago the lead pastor of my church was telling how, when he was younger, he read your book. He said he was so excited about the grace of God in your story I just want you to know that. I am excited too. I love what I've read, and I'm going to get your book for myself. You are an amazing example of God's amazing grace Charles! God bless you! Can't wait to meet you in heaven. In Christ, Beth, Ohio." 


"I enjoy your website, and I know your story. I have a few comments and questions. I want to encourage you on your walk and work that you do. Keep on keeping on! I only have one question. How did you renew your mind? I am 37, I know I'm to renew my mind, but I have never been able to accomplish or know where to begin. I'm hoping the Lord will give you guidance to help me. Thanks, Jeremy"


"So glad to hear back from you. Thank you for your kind words and prayers. I surely am focusing more on Christ and most recently worship. I went to a chat room and found some local friends that share the love for God; people around my age which isn't as easy as I thought it would be. Haha! They agree with me that you're a changed man a God loving man spreading the word.

Since I last wrote you, I haven't put the Bible down. One of my favorites is "Jesus said to the people who believesd in Him, 'You are truly my disciples if you remain faithful to my teachings. And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free'" (John 8:31,32, NLT). You will be in my thoughts and prayers always. Take care! Your friend, Alec, Virginia."


"Thank you for the new things you sent. I appreciate it so much. Yes, I am experiencing freedom big time! In fact, I was thrown a snare this past week, and I did the right thing which I am very proud of, and it made me feel so free! I have a track record for not making good conscious decisions, but I made it! Your example, strength and friendship have helped me so much. Thank you for being such a blessing. I pray for you and consider you every day. Love, Elka, Kentucky"


"I've been wanting to write for a while. I'm only 22, but have become very familiar with you and your case. I've read "Will You Die for Me?", which I loved for its brutal honesty, and how much accountability you taken. It showed how regretful you are of your mistakes and how much you have matured since then.

At some point, I have forgotten I was reading a former Manson killer's book. , I was reading about a young man's road to finding himself and finding meaning in life. In other words, it was very relatable and showed you weren't much different than the typical 20 something. Made me think, what happened to you could have happened to anyone.

I obviously don't judge you for your past actions. I understand you were young and times were different then. I want you to know that I'm proud of how far you come and that you have a friend in me. Love you brother, Michael, Los Angeles."


"I'm 18 years old, & I live on the outskirts of Edinburgh, Scotland. I just heard about your crimes a year ago and they really did quite shock me (but I wasn't to disturbed, don't worry!), but I'm glad to hear about your reform.

I've visited your website, which I found to be very profound and spiritual, and I've read through parts of your book as well, via your website. I've never actively practiced religion myself, but I'm open to the concept of it, and the faith it gives individuals including yourself.

As a result, I hope to hear back from you for more spiritual purposes. Regards, Nicki.


"I'm writing to you because you seem like an interesting fellow who might like a new friend. I'm a 26 year old male. I work at Ross Dress for Less and am an amateur artist.

I've been reading your website, and I have to say that your story is quite inspiring to see how you've turned your life around through Christ.

Just want to say, "Keep up the wonderful work you do!" God bless you, Renick, Oklahoma."


"I finally got your book off the internet; used copy for $7. I am almost finished reading it. I found it to be a very hard read in some places and incredible and exciting in others.

The two chapters about the murders were of course very difficult to read. But a song that I know kept popping into my head while I was reading it by Josh Wilson called "That was then, this is now".

The chorus goes like this: "That was then...this is now; you're bought by the blood, saved by the Son the Saints all sing about. That was lost...this is found. It's time to say goodbye to the old you now. So go ahead put the past in the past. Box it up like an old photograph. You don't have to go back, cuz that was then and this is now!!"

Charles, I can't help but feel such joy for you when I think of the transformation that has taken place. I want very much to be a partner with you in prayer. Your story is an amazing story of God's amazing grace! I'm so happy to be writing you and thrilled that you are a child of the One True King. God bless you, Beth, Ohio."


“I hope this finds you doing well. I am 39 and live in rural Georgia, with my four children on a small little farm that keeps me busy.

I must tell you how I came to find you. I've been struggling with some personal health issues over the past two years. I love the Lord and have turned to Him for support and guidance. He has been my rock. I praise Him!

While reading different sites online about forgiveness and heaven, I came up on your "Abounding Love." This is a divine intervention.

I didn't know you by name or face until I found this. Of course, I know this story. To read of your faith in forgiveness and testimony has given me hope and assurance that God forgives us and despite our sins, we can be forgiven. I have made choices regarding my health that have made me ashamed to ask the Lord for forgiveness. I know now that he has forgiven me. Thank you!

I know you are a busy man, but I so badly to share with you that this has helped me. I know it is going to be alright. Thank God! I finally am at peace and I'm content with life and thankful for all that I have. God bless you.”


"I have begun reading your books, "Will You Die For Me?" and "Manson's Right-Hand Man Speaks Out!" I just felt that I had to write you. I have so many questions about who you are now and have so much to say. Your books are both very well written and informative. Truth be told I can hardly put them down.

Apart from reading your books, I went to the abounding love ministries website and read your Q&A. When describing your typical day, you mentioned you wake up at 5 a.m. am I the first thing to do is read. What do you read Mike bucks, scriptures, etc.? I read a lot, so if you have any book recommendations, I would love to hear them.

I also was excited to find out that we both have December birthdays, and I was a vegetarian for 12 years; you still are today. You received your BS in Business Management, correct? How many degrees have you earned and is there anything you would like to study? I am currently a sophomore in college, double majoring. So I think it is cool you achieved that goal.

I suffer from depression and so some days are harder than others. Is there any uplifting advice or quotes that you could share with me? I am very proud of the person you have become. I know that you receive a great sum of mail, however, I do hope to hear back from you. Best wishes!"


I'm just a teen, but I've been wanting to write to you, and I finally am. I started reading stuff on the so-called "Manson Family" and though you were a big part of the crimes, and I don't know you personally, I couldn't help but feel bad.

I haven't been able to read any of your books because I couldn't find them. As glad as I am you found God, I'm not the most religious person. How can I find God? I have read a Bible once, but I don't own one.

I don't know how much mail you get, or if you get any hate mail, but I'm not judging you, because only God can, and I feel God forgave you. Plus, you have apologized. Thank you, and God bless you! Ian, WA, USA


I recently read your book and anything else I could find on you. I am interested in your life and choose not to dwell on the past as I can see you have moved on from that dark place. Praise God for the journey you have travelled thus far.

I am a Christian (I guess). I try with everything in me to believe and live the way people tell me God wants me to. I fail every day. I want to become this person who feels the joy I am told a relationship with God can give me. I tend to be somewhat narcissistic, but I am on the other hand a good person.

Do you have any words that can help me? Someone who has turned their self around as wonderfully as you seem to have would be an inspiration to me. I don’t care what you did in your past. I admire you for what you have done since then and continue to do. You help people! I hope you realize that.

Please help me find the God you serve! I hope to hear from you soon. I will be honored if you answer. Thank you, Jennifer.


Hello Charles, my name is Bruce. I’m 44 years old and am an ex-con myself… I have done two terms… I was released in 2011 and have since discharged my #... but find myself back in the same situation. I’m living on my friend’s couch for now... I have no job, no car, etc. I have to fight the feelings of wanting to do something illegal to get money. I do have a bit of a drug problem, but I have moments of clarity. I can be good; that’s how I was able to discharge my # without violating my parole. But then I find myself falling into the same pattern – getting high, not caring, etc. I was talking with another friend of mine who had done some time and he is doing very well. He is into the church. He told me about you and what you had done, and who you are now and said it was all because of the church. So I went to your website and had a look, and I liked what I saw. If someone like you can change and find yourself with the church, then maybe I can change for the better? I have read about you on the internet; I have seen an all the good you have done for yourself while locked up. I even watched one of your sermons on YouTube. I was very impressed and felt better about myself, because your speech made me think about my life. I thought if “Tex” Watson can change and feel good about himself, then I can too. I know you’re in a very high profile case, but I do hope you are released.

You have done a lot to better your life; you’re not the same person you were 45 years ago and I’m proud of you! I am trying to better my life! I want you to know that you have me looking at my own life and seeing what’s wrong… and with God’s help, I can save it. THANK YOU! Bruce, CA


I got interested in you and your conversion after I had watched a special show on the History Channel called 'Manson' recently. At the end of the program it had showed the followers of Manson and had info on each one and after I saw yours and that you were born again in prison, I was interested in your story of how the lord changed you, so I looked you up online. Fortunately, I came across your 'Abounding Love Ministries' website. As I write this, I have only read a small portion of what you had to say on there but enough to prompt me to write you and congratulate you for your decision to accept Jesus into your heart!! I look forward to reading much more on your website about your relationship with Jesus Christ. Lynn,  KY


 Thank you so much for your encouragement to "grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ." I know that I do as I continue to meditate on His Word. I had great success in getting a DVD of your Forgiven video from The Word for Today. Thank you for your testimony Charles. I have enjoyed watching it. I praise our Heavenly Father for His forgiveness and also giving us the ability to forgive others. Once again, I thank you for everything, the information and your prayers and know that you are always in my prayers. May God continue to bless you and your ministry. Timothy, KS


Thank you very much for your online ministry. I've been searching for some spiritual food and your words were just what I needed. My significant other is currently incarcerated in federal prison in Beaumont, TX. He has already served 2 1/2 years of a 20 year sentence. I want our relationship to survive but as time passes, it becomes more and more difficult. In the meantime, I just keep praying and try to support him in any way that I can. I read your book, Will You Die For Me? and felt your pain and isolation. I know those feelings all too well and I, too, have tried to dull them with drugs and alcohol. I agree with you that the only way to combat loneliness and emptiness is to have god in your life. Sometimes, He seems pretty quiet, but I know that means He is working behind the scenes. On another note, we do have some similarities. I'm an 8th generation Texan and currently reside in Houston. I, like you, was also raised in the Methodist church. I still attend most Sundays with my parents. My relationship with god is a work in progress. Thank you again and God bless. Blaine, TX


I hope you are doing well! I am writing to tell you that I admire your ministry and to say that I think you are a great inspiration to so many people looking to make a positive change in their life. I know that all we can ever change in this world is ourself and that you have helped many with your message. I would love to hear from you, Mr. Watson, and learn more about you. I hope all is good for you and thank you for taking the time for me. Ty, GA 


NEVER LOOK BACK: I grew up in a home that was filled with negativity, emotional neglect and violence. I can honestly say that I do not remember receiving a hug from my mother, let alone hearing her say that she loved me. One phrase I did hear from her quite often was "I love you because I have to, but I do not like you." I realize that is probably hard for someone who came from a happy home to believe, but closeness was something that did not exist in my young world. To me the negativity, neglect and violence was normal; because I did not know anything else. I never realized just how much the loveless home I lived in had affected me. My self-esteem was damaged and I continued to go down the dark hole of loneliness. As I grew older the beatings ended, but the damaging words didn't. Although I was a perfectionist, I was never good enough in the eyes of my parents. I pushed myself harder and harder to gain their acceptance, but that never came. There was always something wrong with me.

At the age of 20 I joined the military and moved away from my parents. I was becoming my own person and finally able to see that I was worthy of love and acceptance. I was someone who deserved to be loved, however, I didn't realize that they had inflicted horrible damage to my self-esteem. The damage was so deep that I was unable to maintain a relationship, because I didn't know how to give or receive love. At the same time, my desire for perfection also remained and I began to rise through the military ranks quickly. That didn't satisfy me either, because I felt that if I was able to do it, anyone could. I was never happy with any of my accomplishments.

I turned to counselling and therapy many times over a period of five years, but it never seemed to work. I suppose somewhere deep inside of me I kept telling myself that I was not worthy of God's love. After I returned from a very arduous tour in Iraq, I knew I had to do something to get beyond all of my self-destructive behavior. I began looking online to see if there was something I could do to get beyond all of this sadness. As I was searching the internet, I came across your website and read through every article that was inside. I started to become inspired by your words, because they seemed so genuine and heartfelt. I decided to write you, with the hopes of gaining an understanding of how you were able to get beyond your past, because I felt it could also help me.

I was pleased beyond words to receive a letter back from you, nearly five years ago. At that point my life changed, because not only was I introduced to a wonderful man, I was also introduced to the Lord. At first I questioned everything too much, but I believe that is what the Lord intended for me. He knew that I had to be certain in every way before I walked along His path. I still have times where my low self-esteem can creep in, but I also know that I have two outstanding friends to help me when I'm struggling. Those two friends are you and the Lord. I thank you for your guidance, your friendship and most of all your belief in me. Your friend, Matt, CA


I was at CMC with Charles and I want you all to know that since my release; in 1984 I have had no further convictions. I lived for a period of deception, but God is faithful and has me back on track again. So let Charles know that Paul Bell the inmate that ran the card ministry is still walking with the Lord. Paul B.


I want to take the time to thank you for your website 'Abounding Love Ministries. I am 67 years old now and all my life I believed in nothing or anything to do with God or Jesus. It made me such an unhappy and lonely person with nowhere to go. My friend told me to read your website. At first I didn't bother, but I finally got around to reading it. And now, thanks to you, your site has given me something to finally believe in, and it all makes so much sense. Why did I not see all this before? I feel so much happier in myself. Now, I have something to believe in and things can only get better from now on. I cannot thank you enough. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with everyone. I knew all about you from the past, but for you to get through all of that to find God is truly an amazing thing. You have achieved so much over the years Mr. Watson, and you have helped so many other people to believe in God, including me who never ever thought I would believe in anything and that is all down to you and Jesus and I am eternally grateful. I would be so pleased if I would hear from you via letter, just so I know you had a chance to read mine. But I know it's probably not possible as you are busy. Thank you Mr. Watson and thank you so very much for changing my life in a very good positive way. God Bless. James, England


All you have endured, all you've come to be is an astonishing transformation. I know the full effects of suppression. It is in degrees. I know madness. It is also in degrees.I believe you've come to full peace. I believe all is forgiven. There can be no other journey but to where you've arrived -- you, a man of conscience and conviction.


Charles, I wrote to you (and many others, as I did prison ministry for 30 years) long ago on a regular basis. I still have a cassette tape of your ordination, a tape of your sermon on baptism, and a VHS tape about your situation which you made with Pastor Chuck Smith from Calvary Chapel in Costa Mesa, CA. After a few years, you asked me to write to your wife, and I did. She provided me with hundreds of tracts which I made good use of, and I only wish there were more. I worked a full-time and part-time job, but my ex-husband had left me with my then 3-year-old son, and I could not afford anything from your ministry, but I was never charged. Every bus I rode to jobs in Cleveland had one of your tracts in every empty seat. As the bus filled up, everyone picked up those tracts and read them during their trip to work. I left them in phone booths (we have none today), on shelves in stores, and I handed out so many in so many places. I thank you for all those opportunities. Carol, Ohio


I also just read you current Monthly View regarding the Victim's Rights Week this past April. That type of event must be highly emotional for everyone involved. It takes brave people, on both sides, to walk into the chapel and share their emotions and heart-felt stories. Here is a story that I might not have shared with you before. When my older brother was 18 he was babysitting for an older woman who he knew from work. Her estranged husband came to the house after she returned home and beat both of them with a metal pipe, as my brother was helping her carry some packages into the house. My brother and this lady were left for dead, as the perpetrator passed out from the drugs and alcohol that were in his system. My brother awoke after several hours, got help and spent the next few days in the hospital. The person who committed the crime was never convicted of a crime; he was only placed in a facility to help him get beyond his drug and alcohol problem.


I find that the closer I get to the Lord, the more at peace I am. Of course, I still have my moments where I get down, but that is the time I pray the most and ask for help. I see so many things in a much different way. I have always been a compassionate person, but I can feel myself being a much more feeling person than I have ever been before. I find myself wanting to be a better person each day. I have you to thank for helping me along the way, with being my friend and truly showing that you care about the path I will choose in my life. Matthew, CA


I am writing to you, with hope you will receive this and respond. I was born in 1973, after your crime. I came across your story, and the mess you wound up in, by means of some documentary. I did some research and found out as much as I could about you and your case and also the Manson family. Although myself, I never committed any crimes, I struggle with self-esteem, drug and alcohol abuse. Even with times of years of being clean and sober, I can not find peace of mind, or comfort and faith in God and I have been to multiple rehabs and churches. I am now 40, all alone and lost the will to live. I am curious at how you continue on after 40 plus years in prison, and still have the will to go on, from a big mistake you made when you were basically just a kid. You must have found some higher power because I can't handle being alone and not having the things I should have at my age. 12-step meetings do nothing for me... If you receive this letter and would be kind enough to share what keeps you going, you may possibly save a life. Best of luck to you, and hopefully you will receive parole. Brian, New Jersey


I just wanted to say that I have been blessed immensely upon discovering this website and all of its content. I see Charles in a new light now and I am so happy he has allowed our Lord to mold him into the man he was born to be. I thank the moderator as well as Charles himself for keeping this labor of love alive to help lead others to Christ and help people see that the Lord can work through anybody. God bless Charles Watson! It is inspiring to see him living a life that glorifies Jesus despite the fact that certain persons tend to doubt his sincerity. I can tell that he is a new creation in Christ Jesus and that he has transformed drastically & beautifully throughout the years. I hope that he can feel the love and prayers that many of his brothers/sisters in the Lord are sending out to him. I hope this ministry continues on for a very long time. Jillian


Thank you for your words of encouragement. I did get my NLT Bible, and I am truly enjoying it. I take it to the country with me to let my dogs run. My mind is clear there surrounded by nature. Thank you for suggesting it. All the answers truly are in the Bible. I am seeking answers for my problems now. I've been on your website numerous times, so much to read. I'm going to print off the Monthly Views so I can highlight parts that speak to me. You have been a blessing to so many people. I hope you can feel that. I read the monthly views and see the lives that you have helped change, and it encourages me to be a better person and to reach out to others. I will always remember you as someone who has helped me to grow in Christ. You are such a big inspiration to me and others; you truly have a gift that you have shared. A gift I am truly thankful that you took the time to share with me. Please keep me in your prayers and I will you as well. Your friend, June, KY


My name is Maurizio, and I recently came across this passage and thought of you: "Blessed are those whose lawless deeds are forgiven, and those whose sins are covered. Blessed is the man against whom the Lord will not count his sin." (Romans 4:7,8, ESV) I have been currently struggling with religion and you have become somewhat of an inspiration. WA State.


Hi: I read about your case, and your finding our Heavenly Father. God bless you, brother. I love to hear about your journey with Christ. George, WA State


I praise God for His display of love, mercy, forgiveness and grace in saving you and adopting you as His son. I also thank you for your witness as a disciple of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ in sharing your testimony of faith to others. It is so wonderful to know what a great work God is doing through you and your ministry. I pray that you may be released to do what could be an even more expanded and greater work to glorify Him. Timothy, Kansas


While looking over the Abounding Love Ministries web page, a question came to mind I hope you can answer for me. How does your faith in Christian religious view the extreme religious right intolerance of other beliefs in religious faith or politics? I hope you can shed some light on it for me. Matt, Amarillo, Texas


Response from Charles: Thanks for your letter. I believe we need to respect the rights of others to believe as they desire, just as we desire respect for our beliefs. If we appear trying to fix others, we're saying they are wrong or less than. As a result, we run the risk of putting up a wall that will close their ears to ministry. Instead of creating a sin consciousness by attacking a person's sin and unbelief, as Christians, we are to minister the Good News of God's love and grace, which creates a righteousness consciousness. When the seed of righteousness is implanted in our heart, we will begin to view the solution for others as we view ourselves, that we received the righteousness of God by faith in His Son, Jesus Christ, not by legalism. Remember what God says, "...the just shall live by faith." (Hab. 2:4; Rom 1:26, 17; Gal 3:11)


I'm from a small town in Pennsylvania where I go to school for Criminal Psychology. I happened to hear about your case in one of my classes, and it caught my attention. I learned that you have since been a changed man. It really touched my heart. Kristen, King of Prassia, PA


My name is Paul. I am training to be an official servant of God. Of course, I've considered myself a servant for a long time. You see, sir, I look to you with much encouragement. I went to jail for attempted murder in 2005. I got out on parole in 2009. I heard your moving story in 2010, and it changed me into the man I am today. So Thank you! I have a wife and two small children that I can now show the Way. Coatsville, PA.


I have wanted to tell you for a long time how impressed I am at the way the power of forgiveness shines through Susan LaBerge. It is a true statement to how someone can let go of anger and sadness, while opening up their hearts to the power of love and forgiveness. I was so impressed with the way she stood by her convictions and didn't let anyone pressure her into changing the way she felt. I can't help but be fascinated at how strong of a person she is, because many people would have changed their way of thinking as soon as pressure from others started to hit them.


At the same time, it is a testament to what a good person you truly are. I think that is what drew me to you in the first place. I was at a point in my life where I knew I needed to change. I knew I needed to free myself of anger and sadness and stop reliving the past. I can't tell you what it was exactly that made me seek out your page in the beginning, but it was probably one of the most beneficial things I have ever done in my life. Not only have I gotten to know a wonderful person, but I have also been able to read your monthly views over and over. I have read them so many times and each time it seems as if I have found something new. It was almost as if I was guided to you in order for me to heal and to make a life-long friend. I am proud to call you my friend and thankful that I met you at a time in my life when I needed that genuine guidance. I saw several different therapists, but it never seemed to help. I continued to feel the pain of everything that had happened. I read books, listened to audio tapes, and had even tried hypno-therapy and yet nothing worked. Then, I saw your website and began to read every single word and the true process of healing began. I can't explain what it was about your words, but it seemed I could relate to so many of them. I was drawn to everything you had written. I can't thank you enough for everything you have given to me. Your friend, Matt, CA


I've read and seen a lot on the Manson murders, and therefore have heard of Charles Watson several times. I do believe that he's truly sorry for his role in these crimes, and has accepted responsibility for his part in them. God has awesome powers, and one of those powers is to turn those who do not believe in Him into His worshipers. I wish Mr. Watson all the best in his efforts to continue to spread the Word.


I know that Mr. Watson may never know about this message but I wanted to say that his testimony is very powerful indeed. I know Mr. Watson regrets that he took part in the Manson family, but God took a man who committed a heinous crime and turned his story into a beautiful testimony of God's unconditional love and grace! A prayer for all prisoners that they too may be saved through God's grace! Praise God and our Savior Jesus Christ!


Hello, My name is Jennifer. I recently served (well, almost served) on a jury for a murder trial. I truly believe that God put me there for a reason. I have not been able to stop thinking about how many people, children of God, are forgotten. Society says that we are defined by our actions, but that is not what the bible says. We are defined as children of God, imperfect children who have been saved becuase of Gods grace and sacrifice. I dont want for any inmate to think that they have no life left and that they are unworthy of Gods love. The truth is that none of us are worthy, but we still have it.


Hey, this is an awesome website! I recently watched something on the history channel about Charles Manson. It is awesome the way the grace of God works! I love Brother Watson's studies and know that he is doing such tremendous work for Jesus! Thank you God bless you guys keep up the good work! we will be praying for you all!


I just want to say hello and let you know that I loved reading through this website. I also am a christian and rejoice that Charles Watson has become such a strong man of God! It's very exciting to know that he has been so faithful to the Lord all these years. Please let him know that I'm praying for him and the continued success of his outreach prison ministry. Thank you and God bless!!


If anything, reading Watson's testimony makes me realize that I must not judge who gets eternal life and who doesn't, for that is up to Jesus. It helps me to lose the anger I've had for years for his horrible acts. I can't help but believe he is sincere because he has confessed and denounced Manson. Wow, if it can happen for him, it can happen for anybody, right? The good he has done is to show young people what drugs, anger, insecurity and a lack of having Jesus in their lives can do to them. I pray that young people will turn away from drugs and look to the cross! God is so amazing.


Just watched the tex watson story and the end was very emotional i just want to say that Gods forgiveness is very unlimited & if we confess our sin he is faithful and just forgive us of our sin & cleanse us from all unrightousness.the apostle paul killed and had the early christians jailed.he was there when they stoned stephen.Then one day he was on his way to damascas and he was met by jesus ans jesus ask him why he persucuted & he ask him who are you he said iam jesus whom you persecute.After that paul was a changed man & went on to be insipred by God to write i believe 16 books in the new testament.So Grace can go alot alot farther than we ever think. So long in Christ, Daril


Just a normal working class christian. I came across your web site while taking a break from working on the graveyard shift. Charles story is very inspirational. Thanks for the time and effort to do the witnessing you do. (not only to prisoners)


Mr. Watson's life is a testament to the love of Jesus Christ and that He can turn all things for His good. Thank you.


I have just come across all this news about the Mansons. I just read Mr. Watson's testimony and I can't tell you how much it has blessed me to see how God has changed this man's life and how he is not wasting his time in prison. He has made more of an impact in prison than he would have if he had of not been arrested. It's not very often you see a person with such bold faith and so evident in his life and testimony. Please tell Mr. Watson thank you for his bold testimony and for his sharing his faith with countless millions of people. This is the kind of testimony that speaks volumes, and the kind that gives others hope in their hopelessness. This has made my day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Something good did come out of all that evil and wickedness. I remember watching the movie on TV when I was a youth and I remember being so oppressed. Now I can have something good to think about the whole situation, God's goodness and saving Grace. I will pray for God's perfect will in his and his family's life. Terri - Fairmount, GA


Some years ago, I'd heard that Mr. Watson had become a Christian, but, until now, had no way of verifying it! Therefore, I am quite thrilled to actually see the truth of his conversion to Christ!!! I am in the process of someday acquiring a PhD in Restorative Justice which is a method of helping people find an alternative to a life of crime via reformation as opposed to undergoing punishment ONLY! Chuck Colson's prison ministry incorporates this viable and proven approach! My very good friend works as a part-time chaplain in the federal and state prison system of Pennsylvania. Since Charles cannot read this email, please tell him, in your own words, of my joy in learning of how God has restored his life and given him a Divine Calling in ministering to fellow prisoners around the world; and that I'll be remembering him in prayer on a regular basis as a newfound brother in the Lord!!! Sincerely in Christ's Name, James - Auburn, MA


May God continue to use you to spread His word to everyone in prison. Please stress to them that it is never too late to ask Jesus Christ in your heart. Thank God for your minisrty. May God continue to give you His strength and grace to tell everyone about Jesus. God Bless You! Kayla - Houston, Texas


I always am in prayer for Watson and his prison ministry..What was meant for evil God turned to good.. Back in the day my mothers boyfriend defended charles manson for publicity only and as a young teen I was exposed to this case. I was full of such joy when This man Charles Watson was saved and forgiven and snatched from the pit of hell. I am with Charles Colsons Pen pal to an inmate and appreciate your missionary web site. Very uplifting.. Thank you Rev. Anne


I just wanted to say that I recently read a "Where Are They Now?" article about the Manson Family, and the "Tex" part caught my eye. I, too, am a born again Christian, so I checked out this website. I think it is so amazing that our God has brought you out of such bondage! What an incredible testimony you have--it's good to know that even though you are dutifully carrying out you sentence, you are a shining example of Christianity in one of the darkest places!!!


Charles & I were neighbors for a time in 1997-1999 in Bldg 6 @ MCSP. He is absolutely right on many topics he has written. I grew up as a firm believer in the death penalty. As I spent my last two years of my sentence on that yard, I could see that there were some men that had actually manifested a change in their heart sufficient enough to cause them to live a life so obviously different than their previous one. Although Charles and I were not "close", I believe that he was one such man. As a result I no longer am a proponent of the death sentence and a believer that change is possible. It is through individuals, like Charles, by living as an example, that God can change men. I paroled in 1999 and through God's grace have not re-offended or returned to jail/prison.


I just wanted to leave this message saying how surprised I was to hear that Mr. Watson is now a Christian and what a blessing it was for me to read through the website and see how some good came from such a horrendous crime that terrorised us all. I know Mr. Watson will never see this, but I wish all the best for him and pray that God continues to work in his life and those around him. Thank you God for even the smallest of blessings! Rachael


This is the first time I have ever researched anything about the crime in which Mr Watson was involved in. I just want to say I admire Mr Watson for upholding his actions and is now at peace with Christ. I do wish him and his family well.


I just wanted to let Charles know that I am in prison ministry and that I have used his testimony on forgiveness to the ladies who come out for church. The Lord has used his testimony to administer hope in the lives of the women we deal with and I'm just writing to say thank you, God bless you and be encouraged Charles because the Lord is still using you greatly here in Pa. Bless You brother.